I was speaking to someone earlier; he always inspire growth and wreaks of undying motivation. Every word uttered screams non stop success and just exchanging words with this individual made me acknowledge something vital to my own growth - I have no direction. Maybe instead of going uphill as I had always expected would be the case, I'm doomed to just remain on the same level, at the same pace forever hoping for change while knowing damn well I'm content with 'the cycle of maybes'. I remember a few years back one of my closest people had said to me "I'm going to be honest with you and don't take this personal, but you lack direction." Truth is I did take offence and I made it very clear I did, but if our closests can't tell us the truth without jeopardising the love and mutual respect for each other who else can, right? I went through a lot as a kid and when someone very close to me left my life, I guess my only plan became to escape the bad and embrace complete isolation. More and more over these last few years isolation seems impossible so I guess my heart and mind is just torn as to what I truly desire for my future living amongst a population I intended to abandon.
Two nights ago I found myself walking another dark road, nothing but abandoned decaying and or burnt down buildings, junkyards and so forth, I saw myself doing that walk many more times in this life and I wondered why. Why would a king not want to elevate, why am I still stuck in the memories of these broken homes, scars and failures I escaped already, more importantly why am I still walking, why can't I seem to leave them in my rare view. It dawned on me it's because I still think I can achieve maximum success on my own but I need help don't I? King status is either inherited, chosen or taken and let's face it the latter is my journey right. These rhetorical questions are aimed at me, don't feel the need to respond haha. So this 'king' as I like to him (the individual I referred to at the beginning of the post), wants to not only see me excel but help me get to my deserved wealth and I think I'll accept his sage advice and help to do so. Man that was hard to say haha. I'm not good at accepting a helping hand at all.
I knew for a very long time that I haven't been the me I once knew. Hustle game has depleted, daily choices have gotten worse, hobbies are not being invested in 100%, I feel no fulfillment whatsoever working the jobs I do and the list continues. I'm broken in more ways than I care to admit but that's not what this post is about - kings have their demons too. This post is to spark change, if there's someone in your life that wants to help you elevate, then accept the help - be cautious because we're all humans after all but ACCEPT THE HELP. I am going to forge new goals for the future, I can't afford to still be a victim of this decaying inescapable 1-man city in my mind anymore. We're all a work in progress right, just need to keep grafting and putting in the work to progress. Time to pivot the storyline from contentment to fulfillment y'all. CHEERS TO CHANGES!
I should take this moment to thank you all for your support, for reading, commenting and so forth! I appreciate it! I want to thank my mom and my sister for just being themselves above all, y'all are truly inspirational. And to the King that inspired this post, from one king to another I just wanna say thank you and cheers to the empires that will sprung from our prosperous moves.
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