Secrets and Choices

“We are our choices” – Jean-Paul Sartre

It’s funny how your whole world can change in a week and it’s funny the choices you find yourself having to make when it does, but what’s worst is how quickly you find yourself going against everything you once stood for just to dig yourself out of a bad situation. We hear constantly life’s unpredictable, you just have to stay strong, remain optimistic and things will change, the thing about it is in order to bring forth change you’ll need to make some really big decisions and a lot of times you might find yourself beset by thoughts that are neither honorable nor considerate when faced with these choices.  So, what do you do when your way out results in you having to do something really selfish or better yet heinous?

I was always a fan of running; I thought if you leave the past in the past, learn to put one foot in front of the other without looking back, then hopefully the past will choose to remain in the past, but life has a way of digging up graves and dragging the bones directly to your doorstep. I guess what I’m trying to say is we all keep secrets, little ones, big ones it seems to matter less and less in a world like this, what really matters is the lengths we go to to keep them hidden. Some of us get lost keeping them, we find ourselves having to create more lies to cover up the ones we already told and before you know it we find that we’re in over our heads (I think is the phrase to use) with too many tales to remember. They say our secrets and the choices we make, makes us who we are today, that it defines us or whatever, well if that’s true then we’re all cowards as well as courageous idiots in my opinion but we’re too blind to see it. I think the worst thing about secrets is how foolish it leaves us; you start to think that maybe something can stay hidden forever or that you need to do anything necessary to ensure it stays hidden forever, but maybe the effects of exposing it won’t be as calamitous as you would like to think, maybe those around you will understand or help you in some way or maybe that’s just stupidity talking.

I think in life your secrets are yours to deal with and so are your choices and yes they affect those around you in more ways than you can imagine but it is what it is. I always thought that if you made a horrible decision then it’s only fair you take responsibility for it rather than dwelling on what could have been done differently or why it had to happen to you to begin with. Main point is you have a choice to make when it comes to your secrets and it’s simple, do you want to keep hiding and running or are you ready to face the consequences it bring? Either way I say do whatever you want but prepare yourself for if/when it catches up with you because apparently what’s done in the darkness must come to light – or something along those lines. I always said growing up “hope for the best but prepare for the worst.”

"Some choices we live not only once but a thousand times over, remembering them for the rest of our lives" - Richard Bach.

"Too often in life, something happens and we blame other people for us not being happy or satisfied or fulfilled. So the point is, we all have choices, and we make the choice to accept people or situations or to not accept situations." - Tom Brady.