Free fall then Resurrect

You ever feel like you’re free falling??? I feel like that a lot; I didn’t know that’s what this feeling was till recently. It’s like you’re falling and you can see the inevitable and whether or not you choose to fight it your body automatically does but you know it in your heart that the obvious will happen. In this moment you see it all, it’s like a huge collage of palpable moments that just seem to appear out of nowhere to help you feel warmth or happiness or sadness or just reach a point of acceptance. You truly understand in that short space of time the true meaning of two phrases: “before you die, your life flashes before your eyes” and “life is too short”. It’s in these last few seconds, that you really see how trivial a lot of things in life really were and why it meant so much to just laugh while you had the chance. The choice to jump or that accidental step that led to this unfortunate predicament seem so minor and it just concludes that all those unimportant “why me?” you chose to dwell on didn’t matter, your only focus is the aftermath of anything you face - can you recover from it? You see these moments and despite whatever emotions they make you feel, for a brief second you finally see the beauty of life and there it is – the inevitable.

You wake up to find that it was all a dream and then everything changes.

It’s like you had an epiphany that has forced you to recognize the vitality of YOUR life and how important it is to really take heed to the fact that spiritually you’ve changed – you’ve been given a second chance. The joy you feel just seem so overwhelming to not share with those around you but then couple days pass or a week, a month or couple months and you’re a victim of those trivial actions again. To be honest I don’t know why I’m telling you this, I know its significance to me but I feel it’s one of those messages you have to interpret in your own way so maybe it’s up to you to decide how it relates to you. See I’ve learned that I and everyone else trying to motivate and inspire you people are merely assistants on your path and it’s important that both you and I recognize that. See, I can write and try to persuade you that you have the courage to overcome anything but unless you can find the strength you possess then change can never take place; in other words, I can assist you mentally but physically mate you’re on your own and that’s sad but it’s the hardcore truth. I find lately that I need to constantly remind myself of that too because I get lost in these words thinking that maybe I’ll change the world one day but it takes a lot more than words of encouragement, we both have to somehow muster up the courage to change ourselves for a better future.

I don’t even know how I digressed so far – let’s rewind.

I started to write something a while back for y’all titled resurrection and in it I said that a lot of us may have given up on the goals we once pursued and the values we once believed in and by giving up we not only lost our aspirations but ourselves as well; somewhere along the way you find that you need to resurrect that old you and everything you believed in, in order to keep going. I remember saying the world is not ready for this when I wrote it but I think if anyone wasn’t ready it was me - never be scared to call on that OLD YOU when you want to pursue those goals you once gave up on because you’ll find that as long as you’re still alive you have a second chance to do anything. I’ll end by saying this, look around the world, it’s absolutely chaotic and you can call it luck, an act of God or the universe but the fact that you get to read this post shows how bless you are - there are a lot of people not able to. Don’t wait for a life or death situation to open your eyes, embrace the feeling of freedom while you still have it.